Date: 2025-04-22 Consciousness Maybe sometimes on your way through life, through suffering you tried to search for something better, different. Looking for the core, for some god or meaning. You are not alone there. Millions did the same before you. Each of them founds just shit. During their spiritual trip they often just made someone else's life more comfortable by giving him their own energy and get nothing for themselves, just more disappointments and hopelessness. Every shepherd welcomes new sheep into the flock. It's weird how many people already searched for some god and nobody found him. Not even a sign of him or anything. After frustration and failures some created scripts, books, rules and way how to reach him. Maybe in hope it will bind up their wound, maybe that someone else can continue where they end or maybe just for a bit of power and small sweet reward. Still nobody was successful. But god, that missery around, that's something. All those religious and "in the name of God" pain and suffering. So if there is probably no God, all things are worthless and harmfull and sooner or later they will be rooted, people are stupid and annoying, the question is why, what's the reason, what's the purpose for shit's sake? Hilarious, the purpose, another question that nobody ever answered. Can even human mind get all of this? What about the consciousness? Many talk about it, nobody saw it. There is one test which can prove if consciousness really exists and your being is more than just body and mind. One has to cut off his head. If consciousness will still be there, it exists and human is more than just mind and body. But when that body locker dies with mind then ego will be no more, so no self. How will then consciousness identify something without anything opposite, anything to compare with? How it can differentiate the matter infront of it and see that at all. Is it even there? Infront, behind, there or any meassurement are also just concepts of our minds to somehow interact in this physical reality. If all that disappear, what will stay and what can consciousness observe, can it even see without eyes or feel without any physical response? Just imagine you are eternal soul and your consciousness, You is watching, is it aware of something. Then you as human completely disappear, no more ego, no more persona, no character, no any identification at all, no past or future, nothing, not any construct of human, body, language, words. What will left for You, consciousness to be aware of? What it will do then when your head will be separated from your body and you will be gone forever? Will your consciousness visit some dark dead end slum in America near garbage cans to wait until some black unprivileged talented rapper rapes some privileged white busty drunk stupid girl and jump into her body to create some new body for itself so it can continue to fuckering around again in nine months? What if two idiots cut off their heads? How different will be their consciousnesses? Will there be two different variants of consciousness? Without persona, without past, without any ideology, culture, race, gender, age, values, wishes, ambitions or opinions. How those two consciousnesses will be different from each other? And what the fuck they will be doing without all mentioned above? Just singing some angel choirs and walking in God's garden and smelling flowers? How it is then? God, consciousness, you as separated individual, you as the whole, everything or nothing? Does even some option make any sense and which would be better one? We can be probably sure, that when your human in this ugly and mostly sick body is gone, it will take your mind with it too. Hard disk off. What will left? What you are aware of out of your mind? Is there something that can survive your human death? Will you take some your ideology, value, ambition with you to some non-space, non-time, non-matter existence? Ye, good guess, your every shit will stay here and will be gone forever. Are you ready to leave everything? Good old days when people who wanted to end their lives did not poison themselves with some pills but hanged themselves in the barn behind their house.