Date: 2025-04-22

Consciousness
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Maybe sometimes on your way through life, through suffering you tried
to search for something better, different. Looking for the core, for
some god or meaning. You are not alone there. Millions did the same
before you. Each of them founds just shit. During their spiritual trip
they often just made someone else's life more comfortable by giving
him their own energy and get nothing for themselves, just more
disappointments and hopelessness. Every shepherd welcomes new sheep
into the flock.

It's weird how many people already searched for some god and nobody
found him. Not even a sign of him or anything. After frustration and
failures some created scripts, books, rules and way how to reach him.
Maybe in hope it will bind up their wound, maybe that someone else can
continue where they end or maybe just for a bit of power and small
sweet reward. Still nobody was successful. But god, that missery
around, that's something. All those religious and "in the name of God"
pain and suffering.

So if there is probably no God, all things are worthless and harmfull
and sooner or later they will be rooted, people are stupid and
annoying, the question is why, what's the reason, what's the purpose
for shit's sake? Hilarious, the purpose, another question that nobody
ever answered.

Can even human mind get all of this? What about the consciousness?
Many talk about it, nobody saw it. There is one test which can prove
if consciousness really exists and your being is more than just body
and mind. One has to cut off his head. If consciousness will still be
there, it exists and human is more than just mind and body. But when
that body locker dies with mind then ego will be no more, so no self.
How will then consciousness identify something without anything
opposite, anything to compare with? How it can differentiate
the matter infront of it and see that at all. Is it even there?
Infront, behind, there or any meassurement are also just concepts of
our minds to somehow interact in this physical reality. If all that
disappear, what will stay and what can consciousness observe, can it
even see without eyes or feel without any physical response?

Just imagine you are eternal soul and your consciousness, You is
watching, is it aware of something. Then you as human completely
disappear, no more ego, no more persona, no character, no any
identification at all, no past or future, nothing, not any construct
of human, body, language, words. What will left for You, consciousness
to be aware of? What it will do then when your head will be separated
from your body and you will be gone forever? Will your consciousness
visit some dark dead end slum in America near garbage cans to wait
until some black unprivileged talented rapper rapes some privileged
white busty drunk stupid girl and jump into her body to create some
new body for itself so it can continue to fuckering around again in
nine months?

What if two idiots cut off their heads? How different will be their
consciousnesses? Will there be two different variants of
consciousness? Without persona, without past, without any ideology,
culture, race, gender, age, values, wishes, ambitions or opinions. How
those two consciousnesses will be different from each other? And what
the fuck they will be doing without all mentioned above? Just singing
some angel choirs and walking in God's garden and smelling flowers?

How it is then? God, consciousness, you as separated individual, you
as the whole, everything or nothing? Does even some option make any
sense and which would be better one?

We can be probably sure, that when your human in this ugly and mostly
sick body is gone, it will take your mind with it too. Hard disk off.
What will left? What you are aware of out of your mind? Is there
something that can survive your human death? Will you take some your
ideology, value, ambition with you to some non-space, non-time,
non-matter existence? Ye, good guess, your every shit will stay here
and will be gone forever. Are you ready to leave everything?

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Good old days when people who wanted to end their lives did not poison
themselves with some pills but hanged themselves in the barn behind
their house.